“la douleur exquise
[la doo-lyeur ex-keez]”
- (idiom) A French, untranslatable phrase, describing the heart-wrenching pain of wanting someone you can’t have. To say this phrase is synonym to unrequited love, limits its beauty. Unrequited love describes a relationship state, but not a state of mind. Unrequited love encompasses the lover who isn’t corresponding, as well as the lover who desires. La douleur exquise evokes the emotional heartache, specifically, of being the one whose love is unreciprocated. (via wordsnquotes)
[With Or Without You - Utada Hikaru]
Because it’s still one of my favorite covers of this song. And because it’s applicable to my life right now.
I mean, don’t get me wrong. It feels great to be just another stranger here, where no one knows my name, my story, my thoughts.
But there seem to be more days where I just miss the usual -
texting the usual people
to get the usual food or drink
at the usual place.
Am missing the familiar
and my routine
and my friends
and my home.
It’s hitting me harder than ever that I’m about to go through probably one of the biggest changes in my life. I feel a whirlwind of emotions as each day passes by - excitement, sadness, stress, insecurity, anxiety, fear, confusion, anticipation, optimism… I am still really unsure of what to expect when I land in the city that will be my “home” for the next how-many years.
But now that it’s getting closer, I’m preparing myself for this by trying to have an open mind and an open heart. And I’m hoping by the next time I come back to this home I’ve created the last 6 years, I’ll return as a changed person: a happier, stronger, secure, motivated, determined, I-don’t-give-a-fuck-what-others-think-about-me person.
I think I’m ready for this change.
"Without the cross and resurrection of Jesus, we are stuck in our pains and problems." - Pastor Casey Treat #rememberfriday
Found this shared on my news feed. I need to remind myself of this more often.
Tall trees and blue skies. #downtownseattle