I knew that last Friday and Saturday would be very difficult. It has been five years since I’ve lived this feeling and it was definitely hard to go through it again. Some friends had asked me if it was easier to deal with, as I had gone through something similar in the past.
The truth? No, it wasn’t any easier.
To be honest, what saved me was going through this experience with my second family. Having these special people in my life are the reason why I’m getting through this tragedy. We’re a family that has come together and have been there to support one another, to pick each other up each time we fall. I’ve got a lot of brothers and sisters I’ve gained these last few years, and losing one of our sisters has been tough on all of us.
Dani, I meant what I said to your friends and family on Friday. After all the heartbreak and anger I felt, I am finally left with hope that I will be able to continue to live my life. And that wouldn’t have been possible if it weren’t for you.
"Only the purest of hearts and brightest of souls are selected to be an angel early on. You were one of the most genuine people I have met in my life thus far, and I’m happy to have known you and see you grow these few years we’ve known one another. You’re an inspiration to us all, and we will never forget all you’ve taught us.”
I miss you.
CONGRATS, HAWKS!!! :) Y’all kicked butt out there today!
Before all the craziness starts, I can’t believe it’s been 5 years to this day. I’ll never stop thanking you for everything you have done for me in this lifetime, and I know you’ll be there with me through everything I have yet to endure. You’re still on our minds everyday.
I love you, Tan, and I feel blessed to have you as my guardian angel. #chriscaps
Kung Hei Fat Choi! It’s my year this year.
New Years Day 2010, Boracay.
Another year complete.
I feel like I’m ending 2013 on a good note. I’ve learned so much about myself throughout these 12 months, and in that time, every aspect of my life has gotten better - personal relationships (old and new), self confidence, work, activities. It’s been a journey to figure out ways to make each moment worthwhile and to enjoy everything that I do.
And through alls the ups and downs, I’ve become a stronger, more independent person.
As I gaze upon the [not-so-many] fireworks tonight, toast to a new beginning, and reflect on everything that has happened in 2013, I already know that 2014 will be full of even more new changes and self-discovery. And I can officially say: I’m ready for all of it.
(Because I miss you three dearly, and I also said I would make this into a Christmas card this year).
I am hoping that you three have an amazing Christmas celebration with your families - and that this new year is the best year yet! I’m glad I still get to see you all every once in a while since we don’t live together, so I hope that continues on into the new year!
To all our friends and family, wishing you a wonderful holiday season! May all your wishes come true and may you be showered with nothing but blessings this upcoming year.
I feel like everything is falling into place; it feels too good to be true.
Is this real?
It would be really heartbreaking to wake up and realize this was just a long dream. To be where I was 6 months ago, and have fallen 20 steps back.
Just need to savor all the good things in life while they are there.
“If you find someone who makes you smile, who checks up on you often to see if you’re okay. Who watches out for you and wants the best for you. Who loves and respects you. Don’t let them go. People like that are hard to find.”
- Unknown (via psych-facts)